*Note: I'm going to try to be short this time. Try.
The weather forecast had me confounded this week. Friday is the sunny day, Weather Channel said. The catch was that Friday was a cold day. Last night I got an alert: Friday morning wind chills 10 to 20 below zero. I told my family it was a bad idea. Saturday calls for several inches and a low of 0. Sunday calls for a high of 10. As I hit the pillow I felt certain I'd get up and go to the gym and write my hind end off all day at home.
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It's a little chilly. |
But when I woke up this morning I saw the dawn, unclouded, and had my long underwear on before I could stop myself. I love the sun. And I decided that I was going to bundle up and have a meditation on cold, and suck the marrow out of today.
I am so very glad I went.
Why does the weather over the eastern US trap stratus cover like a kid under a blanket? I could Google the answer, I suppose. Our region is so cloudy, and the clouds only pile misery on top of the obesity and poverty and meth problems and just plain ugliness of this area. But the sun was out, and there was nothing in the sky but it's crescent nighttime companion, setting in the west, and this wasn't a blue dome, as they say. This was a lifetime stretching above my head.
I thought I'd be tired of ice, but when I felt how solid it was, I was only energized. After so many cold days and such deep temperatures, it's thick. It barely bubbled, and I might have walked right across the middle of our cove were I not responsible for 2 little lives at home. It's thick. Thick enough to stroll right across. I walked 50 feet out from shore with nary a concern.
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Snow, or sand? |
The wind has been scraping at the snow covering. It looked just as the sand does, at the beach, when it's packed down and hard. Little blips of bluster had been scratched from the surface, indicating a wind coming from the southeast, and in the strong white light of 9am it looked very much like the sugar beaches of the Gulf Coast of Florida where I used to live.
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The sun's warmth on my right cheek, Nugget's butt on my left. |
If it had been cloudy I would not have laid down, but I did. It was three degrees when I arrived, but there was no breeze and the sun felt warm. I had many layers, and snow pants, and thick ski gloves, and two hats, and the solar radiation blossomed in my chest and I could have laid there all day.
Because the sun came with me to the lake, I asked myself no questions. Uninvited memories kept their distance. Sun and blue, snow and silence. The warmth took its place at my side and in my head as today's reason for being and being there. It was three degrees, and I was so warm. When I retreated into the shade of the woods, I felt such a longing to stay.
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Windswept ice, thick enough for an ice hut |
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We don't understand why you don't want our tongues on your face when you lie down. |
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Savasana on the ice |
I really like this post, how you describe the snow like sand. "Little blips of bluster scratched from the surface." Very nice. And very poetic that you were warm in 0 degrees. The sun is amazing for lifting spirits isn't it? I like this short post, but I don't mind the longer ones too. ;)
ReplyDeleteYou've got some wonderfully specific details in this compressed space. It's also striking how different the contrast is between this visit and your last. There's a lightness and calm here, maybe because you just allowed yourself to appreciate the moment without wondering what it *meant*.
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